Hi i know u guys know me. I have visited ur website and i feel some what encourage to suggest to u how about a page designated to ur success stories for a blog maybe just a suggestion. I don't know what i would have ever done without knowing u guys were always there all 9 times or more i was at the shelter for the animaliztic ways of my abuser and the conditions i allowed myself to live in. I can't count the times mary pick me up at the police station. I will never forget the very first time i met rhoni. It was at the court house .she was trying to give me options to my sitiuation. I wouldn't even look at her. U know what kind of fear a women has when she can't even look into the eyes of another women .

That day i fear her not as if we were going to battle the fear was she had everything to do with my future .i feared my own future. I was terrified of my own life and future. I feared her and everyone. Rhoni i feared the most . No family to turn to but yet this women was talking to me . Even though i knew what she was saying was true . The fear of what would happen to me was enough to want me to just leave the situation and never see rhoni again but that didn't happen not long afterward i was in the shelter.

I did things to make me . So i would not think. I let others make desisions for me run my life . Take my will and i saw no light at the tunnel because my mind was clouded with addiction problems my future i couldn't bear it. But at the same time i couldn't bear anymore abuse from my abuser and abuse from his family..

I remember one time while at the shelter . It was chreistmas i bought some cold medince 3 bottles i drank them so i couldn't think because i was afraid of what my future was going to be . I was pretty hopeless and rhoni and mary gave me 3 days to find a treatment center for my addiction of alchol. I found one in a day in a half. I found a one in louisville kentucky. I didn't know at the time i had 1200.00 dollars in the bank. So rhoni and i drove to dickson so i could get a motel and a bus ticket to kentucky . The bank told us they would stay open a few minutes and wait for us. Little did i know my abuser had a blank check. I learned while at the treatment center my abuser went through the bank 5 minutes after rhoni and i were there. He filled out the blank check tryed to cash it but rhoni and i were there first. I thank god that day i said my first meanfulingly prayer to god as well.…



U see i allowed myself to be in the situation with my abusers and his family. I allowed these things these terrible things to happen to me . Why did i allow it? Because it was the only life i knew all my life ans the fear. I spent mor etime in about 4 halfway houses in nashville and the madison area. . There was no progress in my life and no bettering myself . I just didn't know how. But i learned.as the years have gone by i have learned alot about me my likes my dislikes i utilized my time from 2002 til the present 2007 to learn a whole new way of life.

I know in my mind now why i feared rhoni . She has play a very big part of my life and doing well and still progressing . Little did i know that women influenced me and impacted my life in such a way. Now it is like night and day. My old life was night and now it is day light now….

There is hope . As long as there is people like women are safe there impact on others is something to uphold and see for your self. They r all my heros all of them . U see the fear was there all my life. But now i fear nothing . I choose my people i want around me . I have the power to make things happen in my life . Women are safe gave me power i never new i could succeed like this….

There is not enough time in a day to do all the things i want to do with my time. I hope this long and drawn out story is read by some poor women who has that same fear i had. Fear of what is going to happen to me? That is the fear. Now i know everyday what my life will be like. The people who cross ur path do so for a reason remeber we never met people by accident. Women are safe is no accidnet if they cross ur path . I suggest u open ur door let then in. To ur heart and guide u to do what is best for ur situation . I urge u to listen to every word spoken.. Think of ways to make ur situation better. Let the maddness stop. Before ur life is taken change ur course in history take charge of ur life and for the mental health of ur children do what u must do to make there little lives less stressful. Ur reaction to ur situation will be viewed by ur children . How u react is how they will react. Be honest with urself and others. Don't hide things and speak ur mind. Ask questions on what can u do for ur self and or urself and ur littleones. Find out about ur options and the repercussions to ur options always know them. I can't count the times i din't tell rhoni im going back . And everytime i went back. Nothing changed ever, things that were at there worst in 2002 became in 2007 a sucess i had to work at it to succeed everyday i wanna learn something interesting. I want to braoden my mind. The repercusssions of leaving the shelter and going back to ur abuser will not change nothing. And guess what nothing is accomplished he doesn't change. The abuse begans just were it may have left off . Oh u might get a flower . Or two . Beware he is buttering up for the kill. And u may this time lose ur life maybe in front of ur children. Its up to u to change ur way of life as u know it. Turn ur fear to ur advantage use it . I did. No im not a rocket sciencetist. But i know the fear and pain and the nothing changes . If u never remmeber nothing remeber this. U put nothing in something u get nothing. U r puting all ur energy in a abuseive relationship. It doesn't get better it get wosre. And nothing changes.make thos nessarry changes for ur better good and experience and get to know urself go out on a limb so to speak do something differnet because ur way doin't work . I hope this makes sense. And maybe if u wanna post it u may edited this for me . Im not the greatest speller. And it is hard fo rme to put into words how my life was and now. Now my life is great . Im the captain of my own destiny and i take charge and responsibility for me and my actions.and my life now. Its the hardest thing u will ever do but use the fear and just do it make a differnece in ur life make changes just do it. And women are safe r there for u every step of the way.

My favorite person is rhoni she inspires me mary inspires the gracfulness in me. Paula inspires power in me mary jo inspired calmness in me. And cory inspired me to make myself pretty . With a nice hair cut and a litlle makeup. Im a beatuiful women. I just discovered im beautiful . Contary to what my mother taught me . She said i was ugly. Im 52 years old amd i realize at 52 im beautiful and good inside and out. But i changed made an about face. To some its unbelieveable to others they knew i had it in me i needed struture and encouragement without pregudice and women are safe done there job. Im a survior. U can be too . There r many stories like mine but mine is unique i feel i self made a whole new person. Who has a brain . Is beautiful and has a life of learning. And a life time of experiences good and bad….

Thank u for letting me say this to u. It may have not been approiate but i must give credit where it due. I have u to thank "women are safe" ilove u and i love what u have done for me. Everything that ever happen happen for my own good. I wanna read some success stories. Surely they r out there…. I love u with all my heart. I shall continue to improve my life more and more. . I couldn't have done it without u.

J

By Ben Atherton-Zeman, December 20, 2006



“Problem Solved,” reads the T-shirt. The cartoon above features stick figure drawings of a male and a female. In the first frame, the female is talking excitedly to the male – in the second, he has pushed her through the wall of the frame. She is falling to her doom – he is smiling. “Problem solved.”



Worse yet, the T-shirt is a children’s shirt. According to the Kennebec Journal, shopper Kristin Aiello told the Augusta, Maine K-Mart store manager that the message on the shirt was offensive (http://kennebecjournal.mainetoday.com/news/local/3429020.html - the article has a photo of the shirt). The manager promptly removed the T-shirts last Tuesday.



Surely, this should have ended the matter. Every twelve seconds in the United States, a man abuses the woman he has promised to love. Every two minutes, a man rapes a woman – usually a woman he knows. Men’s violence against women is supported by societal attitudes that reduce women’s voices to objects of irritation. Silencing women is very much a part of committing violence against them. Violence against women is not funny – least of all to those millions of women who experience it.



In an abrupt reversal, however, K-Mart’s corporate offices changed the store manager’s decision. The Journal article quotes Kimberly Freely, manager of corporate relations for Sears Holdings Corporation. Freely said the Augusta K-mart was putting the shirts back on the shelves - Sears Holdings Corporation believes “these attitude Ts are meant to be light-hearted in nature.”



Light-hearted? No matter what the intent of the shirt, the effect is to minimize and condone men’s violence. K-Mart’s reversal of the store manager’s decision deliberately undermines their history of philanthropy and commitment to agencies dedicated to preventing violence against women. Their decision undermines all who work to stop such violence.



Many men (myself included) find it difficult to seriously listen to women. We tend to become defensive. After all, we are socialized to be the “top dog,” the one in charge of the relationship. If we listen to women, our authority might be undermined, whether in our personal relationship or in the world. If we listen to women, we might have to acknowledge the sexism and violence that women suffer – that our gender perpetrates. If we listen to women, we may have to be accountable for our own actions, for our own sexism, for our own privilege – for our own violence.



It’s so much easier to just make women the butt of the joke.



I use humor to educate about violence against women. Humor can be used to reduce an audience’s defensiveness when it comes to learning and accepting difficult material.



Humor can also be used as a club. It can be used to avoid responsibility – “Can’t you take a joke?” Humor can be used to silence targets of oppression: women, people of color, Jews, GLBTQ folks, etc. And it can allow men, whites, Gentiles, heterosexuals and others to continue to ignore our privilege, and ignore the violence that our group perpetrates.



The “problem” in this T-shirt is defined as the woman speaking – the “solution” is to commit violence against her until she “shuts up.”



What about the real problems of violence? Of sexism? Of woman-hating? Of homophobia and racism? If only a simple, tasteless joke would cause these real problems to “just shut up.”



I have one idea towards “solving”: vote with our holiday spending dollars. Don’t shop at K-Mart these last few days of the holiday shopping season.



Instead, support businesses that work to end men’s violence against women. Buy their products, whether it be New Moon Publishing http://www.newmooncatalog.com/, Donnelly/Colt http://www.donnellycolt.com/catalog/core.shtml or the Syracuse Cultural Workers http://www.syrculturalworkers.com/. There are many progressive companies that support these issues.



My calls to Sears Holdings Company have gone unreturned. My call to my local K-Mart was much more illuminating – they had previously stocked the offensive T-shirt, but were not doing so at present. I asked if this was because the shirt was so offensive – “Oh, God, no!” the worker replied. “We just ran out. We’ll be getting more.”



I’m not spending a penny at any K-Mart or any Sears until they remove their shirts and apologize for their mistake.



Problem solved.



Ben Atherton-Zeman performs a one-man play, “Voices of Men,” which uses humor to educate about men’s violence against women. He can be reached at benazeman@hotmail.com, or http://www.voicesofmen.org.



If you’d like to reach K-Mart, go to their website http://www.K-Mart.com/custserv/contact_us.jsp and fill out their Customer Comment form.


Until the violence stops, Ben.



Ben Atherton-Zeman, Acton MA USA
Actor, Comedian, Feminist and Husband
Presenting a One-Man Play: "Voices of Men," www.voicesofmen.org (video clips take a second to load)
Booking information: 978-263-3254



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While reading Gavin De Becker’s book Gift of Fear I came across a section that helps people understand why someone being battered doesn’t leave. Here it is:

“How could someone feel that being beaten does not justify leaving? Being struck and forced not to resist is a particularly damaging form of abuse because it trains out of the victim the instinctive reaction to protect the self. To override that most natural and central instinct, a person must come to believe that he or she is not worth protecting. Being beaten by a “loved one” sets up a conflict between two instincts that should never compete: the instinct to stay in a secure environment (the family) and the instinct to flee a dangerous environment. As if on a seesaw, the instinct to stay prevails in the absence of concrete options on the other side. Getting that lopsided seesaw off the ground takes more energy than many victims have.

No amount of logic can usually move a battered woman, so persuasion requires emotional leverage, not statistics or moral arguments. In may many efforts to convince women to leave violent relationships, I have see their fear and resistance firsthand. I recall a long talk with Janine, a thirty-three-year-old mother of two who showed me photos the police had taken of her injuries after one of the frequent beatings she received. She was eager to tell me about her husband’s abuse but just as eager to make excuses for him. Though the most recent beating had left her with three broken ribs, she was going back to him again. I asked her what she would do if her teenage daughter was beaten up by a boyfriend. “Well, I’d probably kill the guy, but one thing’s for sure: I’d tell her she could never see him again.”

“What is the difference between you and your daughter?” I asked. Janine, who had a fast explanation for every aspect of her husband’s behavior, had no answer for her own, so I offered her one: “The difference is that your daughter has you—and you don’t have you. If you don’t get out soon, your daughter won’t have you either.” This was resonant to Janine because of its truth: She really didn’t have a part of herself, the self-protective part. She had come out of her own childhood with it already shaken, and her husband had beaten it out completely. She did, however, retain the instinct to protect her children, and it was for them that she was finally able to leave.

He also states later on – I believe it is critical for a woman to view staying as a choice, for only then can leaving be viewed as a choice and an option.

If you haven’t read The Gift of Fear – I highly recommend it to you. It addresses many dangerous situations besides domestic violence, such as child molesters, stranger violence, work place violence, etc.

I was just online doing some research on how women are portrayed in the media and I was stunned by what I found. Not only are there centerfolds of half naked young women all over the place but there are half naked young men all over the place too! By the way I was checking out mainstream magazines that you can get at the grocery store—nothing more. Back to my point:
Is objectifying men and portraying the male body as a sexual object doing any good for the feminist cause? I’ll admit I watched Sex in the City when it aired on HBO... back when I actually had cable...and I liked the show at first. But after a while the novelty wore off and I was left with the question: Why can’t we be more creative than merely turning the tables? Don’t get me wrong, the human anatomy can be extremely sexy and I welcome fresh approaches to sexuality in the media. It’s just that there seems to be a trend of characterizing successful, savvy business women as men hungry and shallow. Does there always have to be a trade off? Can’t a woman independently achieve wealth and status without becoming a macho sleaze ball? What is feminism these days anyway? Do we really want our sons, brothers, nephews...having eating disorders, feeling humiliated by their appearance, and being treated like sex objects?
I don’t come from that point of view. My feminism doesn’t really have anything to do with men at all. My feminism incorporates equality with integrity. I guess that’s a little on the boring side and wouldn’t make for a great TV show but hey some of us are still smart enough to appreciate intelligence in the media.

Oh what a night!
Women Are Safe, Inc. celebrated another Domestic Violence Awareness Month with our fifth annual Dinner to Remember. We had 58 guests, a fabulous meal, a song written just for the occasion, gave 3 awards, and heard from a child witness to dv who has been making a difference in the lives of victims as a law enforcement officer. Check out our website for photos and details – soon to be updated on the About Women Are Safe page.
Meanwhile, back at the ranch…. Since it’s beginning, the program has sheltered over 550 families. That is a number that does not include children. It also only counts a woman once, not the multiple times she may have been sheltered. It does not reflect the times she called the hotline, went to court, attended support group, or talked with an advocate. It does not tell us how many nights she spent at shelter – or the times she left without contacting our program. It does not count clients who were accompanied to court, called the hotline, or received other services, but never entered the shelter.
550 families sheltered. What would have happened to these families if Women Are Safe, Inc. did not exist? Most of our shelter clients see coming to shelter as a last resort. They simply have no other place to go. They either have been so isolated from their families they feel they cannot turn to them, or they have angered or disappointed them and have been told not to ask for help again. Some are unwilling to risk the danger they would impose on their loved ones if their batterer knew they had offered help. Some simply have no one. Many of our clients are products of our foster care system that may leave them with nothing once they are discharged.
So where would they have gone? Or would they have left at all? When a woman makes that decision to leave, she must have an option – a place to go, a place to take her children when home is no longer safe. For 550 families, Women Are Safe, Inc. was that place to go.